I don’t know what to say. I just feel like crying. But i don’t, because i don’t know why i would be crying. But i do. I feel like crying because the love of my life, my future (9 months) hubby kept a secret from me. Which i lying. And i told him i would break up with him if he lied to me again. But he didn’t lie, because technically he didn’t say anything about it. But he did it without telling me his plan. What is that considered ? Should I be mad ? Sad ?

I don’t know what to feel. But i clearly do. I’m mad. I’m sad. I’m scared. I’m mad because of what he did. I’m sad because i have no clarity. I won’t see OR hear from him until next Thursday. That means no Crepeville and Rum Diary and Costume Shopping Date tomorrow. No Senior Picture. No pumpkin shaped Pizza from Papa Murphys. No Scary Movie Marathon or passing out candy at his house. No Halloween. No more Hippy Costume or flowers in his beard. I’m scared because … i don’t know why.

I love my Boyfriend. I know he loves me. I know he does! I just have to be patient. I just have to be patient. Patient Patient Patient.